My Movember attempt! Last shaved on the 31st Oct, so exactly 4 weeks of not shaving and this is the result. Not too bad, not great, but the best I’ve ever been able to grow facial hair. Now it just needs to all connect and grow at the same rate haha! Now to shave or continue to grow over Christmas…
1.5 years on testosterone!
Today marks my 18 months on t ‘anniversary’. Feels like longer than that really, I guess a lot has happened since I started. I will make a video at some point, could be a while so apologies. (Housemates are always in).
In the mean time here’s a list of everything I’ve experienced over the past year and a half (the good, the bad and the ugly!)
- Acne; face, shoulders, chest and back. Seems to have settled down now, but still have flare ups occassionally (when stressed, or after lots of physical exercise that causes perspiration).
- Increase in body hair; stomach, legs, feet, arms, hands, chest, lower back, shoulders, butt, groin, underarms, literally everywhere.
- Hairline; receding at sides. Hair has become thicker also, including my eyebrow hair, much coarser than it used to be (same goes for body hair).
- Facial hair; still no beard, but am able to grow somewhat patchy facial hair. Noticeable sideburns and chin beard, upper lip hair not as distinctive.
- Voice; quite a drop. Happened gradually over the first year, most noticeable within the first 4 months.
- Downstairs growth; not as big as some guys I’ve seen, but haven’t been on T as long. Not complaining about what growth I have had.
- Libido; still insane, I don’t think it’s ever going to calm down jfc.
- Muscle mass; increased (helped by frequent exercise and good diet).
- Fat redistribution; also helped by above factors. Still not completely happy with hips/waist region, but working on it. A massive difference from pre T at least.
- Appetite; always increasing.
- Weight; fluctuated up and down due to several factors, but overall gained.
- Height; no difference, none was expected.
- Menstruation; already ceased before starting T due to hormone blockers.
- Mood; generally a lot lot better, less emotional, anger has replaced sadness, more confidence, happier. More social because of confidence. Top surgery has also contributed to this.
- Anxiety; hardly ever a problem any more. Also due to top surgery and not having to bind.
- Medical effects; blood pressure, blood count etc has remained great, peak testosterone has always been too high, doses continuously altered. Slightly high cholesterol (more to do with diet), liver function fine. No bad side effects at all.
Overall, I’m so happy on T. This was definitely the right choice for me, and there’s not been a single day I’ve regretted it.
I've put my top surgery results on transbucket!
I’ve been waiting for swelling etc to go down so I could put my results up, and give a realistic expectation of results as time goes by. A lot of people will upload theirs after a year or so, and make it look like their results were fantastic from day 1. Mine’s continuously improving, and I will add more photos as the months and years go by. But if anyone’s interested in a timeline progression, click the link!
(If you don’t have a transbucket account, it’s easy to sign up, no spam etc, and is a secure safe site)
Nipples and (lack of) scarring.
4 months post op photos!
4 months post op!
Haven’t posted in aaages due to not having internet. But I reached my 3 months post op mark and basically threw myself into working out! I’m feeling great so far.
I’ve altered my diet slightly, cut out most sugary foods, sweets, chocolate etc. I get low fat things where I can, and cholesterol reducing margarine/yoghurts. I still drink full fat milk for now with protein shakes to help me bulk up.
As it stands I do weight training 4 times a week, swimming once a week, and have just started a ‘couch to 5K’ running training (running/walking combined for about 20 minutes, 3 times a week). I also ride my bike places instead of walking where i can.
In only 2 weeks I’ve already noticed a huge difference in my stamina, but mostly in my motivation. I feel good within myself which pushes me even further! Can’t wait to start noticing results in the coming weeks/months!
bitches-and-nike-shoes asked: Hey man, I really like your v/blogs, very informative! I'm 18 and will be starting uni in September next year. At the moment I'm trying to get a referral to charring cross. Everything is taking a long time which I would expect and I'm ok with, but I just realise there's a high chance I won't even have started T when I start uni, and I'm just worried because I want to live stealth. Do you have any advice for staying stealth to people you live in halls with and stuff?
I did my whole foundation year stealth pre-t, which included a trip to Amsterdam and sharing a very small room and 1 bathroom with 4 other guys. I didn’t live in halls there though. But I didn’t encounter any problems at all, I was extremely nervous when I started and kept myself to myself, but I was enrolled as male etc and found that confidence is the key to passing.
As for halls, I’ve remained stealth for my 1st and 2nd year at uni, it’s easier than it sounds. You’re housemates don’t need to see you naked, and you can easily hide documents and medication. If you’re sharing a room I guess it’s harder, things like binding etc, especially at night. So I’m not too sure with that aspect. You could say you have gynocomastia as a result of a hormone problem, which would explain why you would seemingly go through late puberty when you do start T. Or just say you have a hormone deficiency if anyone asks (which they shouldn’t), why you’re not as masculine as other guys.
Generally at uni though, everyones an adult, it’s nothing like school, and you do feel a lot more relaxed. Just because you’re pre-T certainly doesn’t mean you can’t live stealth :)
screamaimcum asked: hey man, I am transitioning on the NHS and i have recently been referred to the adult services from travistock, i am 18 late december, and i am just curious about how long it will take me to get an appointment or at least hear from them, My therapist sent the letter to them about month and a half ago i think. Sorry if you have already answered a question like this.
Hey dude, I’m not too sure. I think my therapist at Tavi heard back within 3 months of initial referral, as she told me at my next appt I had been accepted. So you should hear in December/Jan hopefully :)
thisismyforgiveness asked: I just think you're absolutely wonderful and im so proud of all the progress you've done. You're so adorable and Im so happy you're doing what makes you happy.
Thank you :)