whatchyaupto asked: Hey man, just saw your latest video. I've been thinking over and over which bottom surgery to go with. Not sure if you've said this anywhere but what's listed on your pros and cons list of phallo over meta? The strong con for me would be the scars...
I haven’t made a post over it as I’ve always been set on phallo. But for me personally these would be the pros and cons:
- Natural erections
- Less invasive/less scaring
- Testicular implants can look a little more natural (as no need for a pump for erectile implant so a scrotum can be formed)
- Ability to orgasm
- May be unable to stp (in some cases the result is still too small)
- May be too small for intercourse
- Not as aesthetically pleasing
- May still feel self concious/dysphoric
- May still need/feel the need to pack
- Having an ‘average size’ penis
- Being able to stp
- Being able to have intercourse
- Looking more like a cis male (and generally more aesthetically pleasing)
- Ability to orgasm
- Inability to achieve natural erections
- Erectile implant needs to be replaced after around 10 years (depending which device is used)
- No foreskin
For me the most important thing is aesthetics and practicalities. I want to be able to pee at a urinal, have penetrative sex and look as much like a cis male as possible. I know some cis men have micro penises, but for me that would cause just as much dysphoria as now, as it would effectively be exactly the same just with balls. The cons of phallo are far better than the cons of meta to me.
Anonymous asked: Wow, doesnt it ever slip around or fall down your leg!? I would love to do this as i hate the thought of wearing a harness but dont know if i could be confident, even running etc with it freely in there.
Nope, I’ve been packing for about 3 and a half years now and I’ve never had an incident. Occasionally have to readjust, but doesn’t every man :P
Anonymous asked: Hi, what do you use to keep your packer in place and is it an stp too?
Nothing, just wear tightish underwear. It is yes, it’s the Peecock Gen 2.
Anonymous asked: Wow kudo to your top surgeon :0 they did an awesome job! I've always been scared to consider top surgery just because of some of the gnarly scars that i've seen but yours surgery definitely gmh :) keep doing your thing man!
Thanks! I couldn’t be happier with my results :)
Dismissal from Charing Cross, t dose, 7 months post op and future hopes! Sorry it’s a bit of a long one!
I have officially been discharged from Charing Cross!
This means I am no longer a patient of a Gender Identity Clinic. My referral is going to be sent to the London phalloplasty team, and that’s all that CX have to offer me now, as I no longer need assessments or ongoing care. The endocrinologist there will still monitor my testosterone treatment, but through my gp so I have no need to visit there again!
This makes me a very happy chappy, to be able to say I no longer attend a GIC, makes me feel somewhat ‘normal’ and a step closer to being cis. This summer I plan on applying for a GRC (Gender Recognition Certificate) and I’m hoping to go in for phallo next year. At this rate my transition will be complete in 2016. Speechless.
imissmymind asked: What does it mean when you say your testosterone levels are through the roof? Like, why is it a bad thing? I'm sorry to ask but I don't fully understand and want to know more :)
Hormone levels have to be monitored, and doses altered accordingly. Your body needs a specific amount of sex hormones, too little or too much can be cause other health problems. The main issue with high levels is the body naturally converts excess levels into estrogen, and can also cause high blood pressure.
The peak testosterone levels are taken a week after my shot and should be between 25-30, and mine is currently 40.6 which is about 2 lower than 4 months ago, despite my dose being lowered.
No need to apologise over curiosity! :)
It’s that time again..
I went to get my blood results from last month today and my peak testosterone level is still through the roof.. Yet my trough levels are low.. How does that even work?! I’ll be speaking to Iffy on thursday so it’s likely my dose will be altered again.
Anyone else have this issue?
22.2.14 - 7 months post op.
I can’t make a video tonight so here’s a brief text post:
I still get twinges around my nipples, sort of like a stabbing pain but very mild, as if I were digging my nail into it, it’s more of a discomfort than a pain. I don’t get it very frequently but it’s something that happens (only lasts a couple of seconds/minutes). I believe its the nerves in my chest connecting to my nipples, but I could be wrong.
Sensation across my chest as a whole is still around 95% The area just under my right nipple is still numb, but I’ve started to notice the feeling of pressure when touching it now. I still cant feel temperature on that particular spot though. I have sensation in my nipples and they fully react to temperature change, I never really had much sensation in my nipples pre op anyway, and erotic sensation has never applied and still doesn’t.
Scarring is more obvious on the right hand side (where I pulled it when recovering) but still pretty discreet. I used bio oil for about 2 weeks, and haven’t kept up with it but I might start using it again.
Swelling I believe has pretty much completely gone, although where the numb patch is on the right side there is a small amount of excess something. I have no idea if it’s swelling or breast tissue, but it’s not overly noticeable and hopefully with time will disappear.
I couldn’t be happier with how my chest looks now, I haven’t been working out over the past 5ish weeks due to uni work, so I know it could be better. Something I need to work on!
Dysphoria around my chest has pretty much vanished, in all honesty it took a while after surgery due to swelling and general nervousness about being topless around others (something completely new to me). Dysphoria has shifted to my hips/waist and bottom surgery, but it’s nowhere near as bad as it used to be.
Wow I just hit over 1000 followers on this blog, that’s insane..